The Enchanted Map Oracle – Goblin
“Fear is an illusion…”
This “Goblin” card is very much the trickster. Causing one to see things that aren’t really there. Today was a difficult day for me emotionally. Currently the transiting Moon in Sagittarius at 14° is opposing my natal Saturn in the 8th. I was dealing with a lot of self-doubt, especially when it came to my writing and creativity. I had convinced myself today that I was unworthy, un-lovable and simply not good at anything.
This is what Saturn in it’s lower vibration can symboloze: Fear.
There was an emotional heaviness that kept me awake last night. I kept playing my failures over and over again in my head. I became angry with myself for not posting more often and started to even question my abilities as an astrologer.
Goblins manifest when we focus on negative thinking/self-talk and allow our fears to consume us. They visit when we don’t work on forgiveness, especially when we don’t forgive ourselves. We also live in a society that is heavily focused on productivity. I often feel as though I’m worthless if I’m not working myself to death or juggling multiple projects. My Moon, ruler of my career house, is conjunct Saturn and square Mercury. I’m the Queen of self doubt and negative thinking. Mainly when it comes to myself. I’m real quick to support and nurture the dreams of others while simutaneously shitting on my own. It’s something I really need to work on.
August 30, 2017 at 1:41 am
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September 1, 2017 at 10:59 am
Are you sure this reading is not for me because I totally identify with every word of it. Having many of these goblin days lately and worn out with it all. Need to kick ass with these little fellas. Going through a lot right now, including menopause which is certainly helping nothing. Sleep non existent so have plenty of hours to indulge in negative self-chatter. Body sore and exhausted and can’t seem to get through the mountain of work I set for myself each day. A couple of negative comments on my site knocked the stuffing out of me and like you, decided I was no good and useless at everything. Hoping to break free of the twilight zone I am currently drifting in. Well, I recommended you to one of my site viewers today who was asking about where their moon was. Not an astrologist as you know! Posted your website URL and told them you were excellent, so now you will have to live up to that. Lol! No pressure. I think your work is excellent and the ‘working yourself to death’ is the downside of being a high achiever with impeccable standards. You are very talented. Your creative side is bursting at the seams so there is a constant need to express it, which keeps you running hard and busy.
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September 3, 2017 at 11:41 am
Thank you for the recommendation! I appreciate it.
Those negative comments can surely do a number on those of us who are sensitive to certain energies, especially in the field we’re in. Lot’s of skeptics love to lurk around the pages and websites of tarot card readers, astrologers and so forth. The internet is an interesting place.
I’m dealing with hormonal balances as well. I had a ovarian cyst that burst and it’s created a lot of problems *hugs*
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September 25, 2017 at 1:57 pm
Sorry for the delay in responding. A particularly crazy and chaotic time for me right now. In hospital today but working on my laptop as so many interruptions of late. In for brain MRI follow up on my headaches, face pain and balance issues. Will be here for a couple of days. I love the way you put it ‘Lot’s of skeptics love to lurk around the pages of websites of tarot card readers, astrologers and so forth. Yes, I get anxious every time I get notification of a message as I am not sure what I will find. Typically they are lovely, but it is always those negative ones that catch you and stay with you for weeks.
Ah a burst ovarian cyst, that must be very painful and I can imagine the issues it causes. Yes, hormones all over the place. Roasting one moment and freezing the next. Heat wakes me constantly at night. I then throw off the covers only to drag them back up minutes later. What a drag and wonder how long all this is going to go on.
I have given your link out to another site visitors enquiring about astrology as you are the expert where that is concerned.
Hugs from Ireland,
September 25, 2017 at 6:25 pm
Thank you for the response! I had numbness and tingling in my face and I also had to get an MRI. It turns out my back pain and spinal stenosis were causing nerve pain.
Rest up Lady Vivien. You’re always in my prayers!