Dreaming has always played a huge role in my spiritual development and outlook. I’ve kept a dream journal ever since I was a young girl. Recently, for the past year, I’ve been dreaming of my grandmother’s apartment. My grandmother raised me and we were quite close. Her Capricorn Sun conjuncts my North Node as well as my 4th house cusp. She had a huge impact on me and her sudden death in 2005 left me shattered and devastated.
Around the summer of 2014 I started having a series of dreams that involved her apartment in Manhattan. No matter what the theme, I always wound up in her home. Even famous people I would dream about would be sitting in her living room or walking around. This leads me to a dream I had last night:
The dream starts with me in my old room in my grandmother’s apartment. I’m standing in front of the dresser sliding multiple bracelets on my arms. Hearing a noise in the hallway, I turn to see a group of people walking past my door. All of them are walking dogs in a single line. More people begin to walk past the door and it never seems to end. I wait patiently for them to walk past so I can leave the room and go to my destination.
Once the people pass I can hear my older sister laughing in the living room with some friends. I head for the front door and they begin to ask me where I’m going. I smile, give them no info, and then leave the apartment. The next thing I know I am in a school walking up the stairs with my daughter. I peek inside of a small classroom to see an old woman sitting in a chair by the door. Her chair is making it difficult for me to push the door open. I try and speak to her but she just looks at me, nods, and then the dream ends.
I chose to work with the Vintage Wisdom Oracle By Victoria Mosley. Not only is it beautiful; it’s also quite emotional. As I shuffled I asked what message was being sent to me through the dream. I pulled, Ancestors and Grace. The ancestor card didn’t surprise me since the dream took place in my grandmother’s home. Our ancestors play such an important role in our soul journey here on earth. During the dream I felt impatient when the group of people took too long to leave the apartment and I also remember feeling very emotional when the old woman wouldn’t communicate with me. This is where the, ‘Grace,’ card comes in. I’ve been under a lot of emotional stress lately, especially when it comes to my health. I had blood work done and while the results came back normal, I’m still worried. Chiron sits in my 6th house of health and I have to admit I am obsessed with my health and being sick. I have yet another test on Monday and I feel as though my ancestors are telling me to handle this fear with grace and understanding.
In the tradition of religion, ‘Grace’ means, “Loving kindness of God.” I’ve been over-analyzing almost everything and it’s actually contributing to the overall feeling of sickness in my body. This dream and the cards above are a powerful message: I’m not alone in all of this and I will certainly pull through.
August 23, 2019 at 1:45 am
Dear Nicole,
I was tempted to say “Dearest Nicole” because you seem familiar to me, maybe because my Nana had a huge influence on me. I don’t know if I had been able to survive my childhood without my Nana. I have written about her in the book I am writing on Hygeia and she is very Hygeia-Junoish; so stable and reliable.
Therefore I love your blogs about your family and interest in your family. I have researched Chiron since 1984 when I found I had natal Chiron conjunct my Sun. Chiron is a healer, a caregiver, teacher, mentor. One person; Melanie Rhinehart wrote about Chiron as wounded and all the other lemmings followed. Chiron is one of my spirit doctors, my soul guides and I even met his sister who was very small and hairy years ago in a sacred forest. She is as knowledgable and beneficent as him. So please do not worry about him in your 6th house. He has come to teach you about your body.
n
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August 23, 2019 at 7:06 pm
Thank you so much for your kind words and insight! I actually saw your comment last night just as I was thinking of both my Grandmother and my late boyfriend who passed suddenly in 2013. Your comments are so comforting. It’s been very hard for me emotionally as of late.
I’ve always been a bit of a worry wart when it comes to my health. I actually ahve Hygeia in Aquarius conjunct Jupiter in my 4th house. Good health was stressed big time in my family/home.
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August 23, 2019 at 1:54 am
Hi again Nicole,
My computer is very temperamental so I feel safer sending you my message in small sections. I am wondering whether you are picking up some of your ancestors health traits/problems with TSaturn and Pluto transiting your 4th house. All your dreams tells me you are quite psychic. I have Australian Aboriginal and First Nations American ancestry as well as Scottish and Irish ancestry so I know our ancestors watch over us and influence us.
Well enough said. I tried to find you so I could thank you for your kind “likes” on my articles. I do so appreciate your “likes”. I put so much work into that last yod article and not one person even put a like on it. I was crestfallen. And then you came along and brightened my day.
Thankyou so much and I hope you begin to feel safer and happier soon.
Many bright blessings,
Hilary
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August 23, 2019 at 7:59 pm
Thank you so much! You’re spoiling me with these comments 😉 I’ve been quietly following you for quite some time now. I love your posts. I haven’t been as active on WordPress as I used to be, but your blog is usually the first one I visit when I log on.
Recently I’ve been suffering from chronic pain. I was diagnosed with spinal stenosis/sciatica about two years ago. My grandmother and a great-aunt also suffered from unexplained pain. Mainly in their legs. My grandmother was a heavy smoker (I’ve never smoked) so I don’t know if that worsened the problem. I usually get flare-ups when I’m stressed.
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September 11, 2019 at 4:08 am
Dear Nicole,
In answer to your last comment I am answering as a shamanic practitioner/healer/past life healer or ancestral healer, whatever you want to call me. Sometimes our ancestors stay in our dimension when they die, because they be so worried about you and I mean you Nicole. Most people use the term “pass over’ as a euphemistic term for die, but they don’t “pass over” to the life between life where they are supposed to go to make decisions where their soul goes next. My Granny, my mother’s mother who was highly interfering, but adored my mother did not “pass over” in 1986 and she made Mum very sick until I helped her “pass over” in 2016 after Mum died. These people become ghosts and ghosts for all their good intentions can make the people who they hang around, very sick, with the same ailments they had when they were alive, because they gradually take over their energy field. When my healing partner returns in November or Dec I can ask him to help me take your grandma and great aunt to their correct dimension if you like. I am so sorry to hear you are in so much pain.
Many blessings from your cyber friend,
Hilary
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September 11, 2019 at 8:22 am
Thank you for replying, Hilary.
My Great-aunt is actually still alive. She’s my grandmother’s older sister (I should have mentioned that before)
I feel my grandmother’s presence more strongly than my mother’s, actually (my mother died suddenly in 2007) I’m so fascinated by the idea of deceased loved ones making us sick!
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